Life feels like it’s moving way too fast lately. It’s difficult sometimes to slow down and remember to take everything one day at a time, especially when you’re young, but I’m working on it. I feel like I’m starting to get back into the swing of things, and it’s nice.
They say you have to hit rock bottom before you can start making your way back up, and a couple weeks ago I reached what felt like that point. Before I fell asleep that night, I was thinking about all the things in my life that I wasn’t happy with, and the list went on far too long. The only thing I was sure about was that I could not keep living like that any more; it was so hard to find joy in anything, even the things I used to love.
I’m still trying to figure myself out. Aren’t we all? As long as I have my job, my best friends, and my family, I know that everything will be okay. As much as I want to be independent, we all need something to depend on — a person to talk to when you feel alone, a home to come to when you want comfort, friends to be with when you want to have fun, and a job to make life feel more regular and stable.
All it takes sometimes is a couple steps back and a little perspective to realize that life isn’t nearly as bad as it’s made out to be. There are so many reasons for me to be happy; I just stopped seeing them. I could blame that on a number of different things, but I won’t. When it all comes down to it, the only person left to blame for where your life is right now is yourself. After all, it’s your life. Every choice, mistake, and achievement you’ve made has brought you where you are today.
I can proudly say, however, things are most definitely looking up. I’ve started to appreciate the little things again, and the big things even more. I’m not going to let life bring me down anymore; being sad is just such a waste of time.
Staying positive, even when you think you can’t, is one of the most important things to remember. When you’re pushed to the edge and you feel like you’re going to break, hold on to the things that you love. They, if nothing else, will get you through.
I would also like to take this opportunity to thank everyone again for all the positive feedback on my columns and articles. It means so much to know that so many of you even read my work, let alone enjoy it.
It’s amazing to feel good about life again. It feels like a huge weight was lifted from my shoulders, and I can finally breathe and enjoy myself. Knowing that in the end everything will turn out just fine is enough hope for me. I’m far from perfect, but I like it that way. Perfection isn’t something anyone can actually achieve; it’s something too many people strive for and end up disappointing themselves when they don’t reach it. But I don’t need to be perfect. Right now, I just need to be happy. Everything else will fall into place as life goes on, and worrying about it isn’t something I wish to waste time doing.
Finally, thank you to my best friends and my family; without all of you, I wouldn’t be where I am today. The future is bright, and although I don’t know exactly where I’m going yet, I know that I’m going to be successful and happy when I get there. Life is a roller coaster, and I’m just trying to enjoy the ride.
